productivity=trying
setbacks abound. trying to get my pension paperwork filed. there is a number missing i need and the copy machine is broken here at the library. trying to get resumes mailed off, but the internet is not working at home. thinking of popping some sleeping pills and just giving up for today.
oh, and my office job guy emailed me back about a schedule. i was about to cut and paste the email but the library computer doesnt allow for cutting and pasting. strict. he said, he has to talk to some people next week, he really likes me blah blah. but he can't promise anything. those words are going through my head and making me crazy. I can't promise anything. everything is hinging on this!!! i can't sign up for classes until i know i have an income. i cant sleep normally until i know. i can stop looking for jobs, which i hate more than life itself, if i know. i really wanted this job. feeling heartbroken.
setbacks abound. trying to get my pension paperwork filed. there is a number missing i need and the copy machine is broken here at the library. trying to get resumes mailed off, but the internet is not working at home. thinking of popping some sleeping pills and just giving up for today.
oh, and my office job guy emailed me back about a schedule. i was about to cut and paste the email but the library computer doesnt allow for cutting and pasting. strict. he said, he has to talk to some people next week, he really likes me blah blah. but he can't promise anything. those words are going through my head and making me crazy. I can't promise anything. everything is hinging on this!!! i can't sign up for classes until i know i have an income. i cant sleep normally until i know. i can stop looking for jobs, which i hate more than life itself, if i know. i really wanted this job. feeling heartbroken.
