i'm getting too old for this

productivity=medium i guess

i'm in full force job hunting mode. i haven't felt this depressed in a long time. nice to know i still have it in me. here's what i applied for today:

production assistant
caseworker 1
entry level marketing position
data entry rep for tutoring company
data entry clerk
production assistant for film
sales trainee
management trainee

enterprise rent-a-car got back to me within the hour. did a quick search on that job. 80 hrs/wk for $30K/yr. wow. and you get the thrill of being relocated a few times in your career. the time is coming when i may just have to settle for this. when i report myself going in for an interview for that job, then you will know i have given up completely.

i also filled out an app for the temp agency. that actually wouldnt be so bad because you are expected to hate that job upfront. enterprise actually tries to hide the fact that you are going to be in a walking nightmare for the rest of your life with them.

i've been trying to find a therapist/career counselor/psychiatrist. so far they are way high priced.

i've eaten nothing but honeycomb cereal today and i haven't left the house. admitting that made me feel better.

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productivity=trying

setbacks abound. trying to get my pension paperwork filed. there is a number missing i need and the copy machine is broken here at the library. trying to get resumes mailed off, but the internet is not working at home. thinking of popping some sleeping pills and just giving up for today.

oh, and my office job guy emailed me back about a schedule. i was about to cut and paste the email but the library computer doesnt allow for cutting and pasting. strict. he said, he has to talk to some people next week, he really likes me blah blah. but he can't promise anything. those words are going through my head and making me crazy. I can't promise anything. everything is hinging on this!!! i can't sign up for classes until i know i have an income. i cant sleep normally until i know. i can stop looking for jobs, which i hate more than life itself, if i know. i really wanted this job. feeling heartbroken.

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productivity=low

but i got an excuse. i was up early for the plane flight.

not unpacked. watching space ghost. reading comics. playing ds. consuming taco bell bean burritos.

headache, fatigue.

no email response from prospective employer. worried. response from dental volunteer van. need to get my Hep B shots.

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productivity=low

mailed out some stuff, packing, laundry blah. finally picked up some lights for my bike tho. flight out tomorrow.

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happy hollandaise.


sauce

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productivity=low (fer yesterday)

family stuff all day..

too much drinking and eating. waking up at 2 pm. today

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productivity=all new lows

didn't leave the house today.

finished reading marley and me. about a dog. some guy's dog. it was vomit inducing. far too sentimental and chicken soup for the soulish.

getting obsessed with dick in a box

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productivity=low

family things all day.

tired.

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Productivity=low

xmas shopping at mall. succeeded in buying not a thing. whoops. mall is dull. hate of suburbs growing.

went to see the good shepherd

currently reading what should i do with my life? ha ha

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productivity=medium

i have just returned from a small US tour. I have visited friends and family in Chicago, Las Vegas and Portland. I managed to see quite a few people, but I still missed out on lots more I would have liked to have seen. Plus I would have liked to go to St. Louis.

I've read: Mysteries of Pittsburgh, Running with Scissors, Stiff, Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close.

I've watched: The Gingerdead Man, Wicked Little Things, Turistas, King Kong (2/3rds of it), Casino Royale, The Pursuit of Happyness.

I've researched several community colleges for their course offerings. I've memorized one article out of my Japanese text.

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