i'm getting too old for this

productivity=what

ok. the jobs are good. but the future of the one i like is shaky. i'm not sure how much longer they will need me. plus the future of me is shaky. what a what. i'm here. i'm queer...um ok. there is a job i desperately want with a certain japanese broadcasting company. i want it. i want it so bad. i want to take japanese class. bad. i want my effing textbooks to show up. i want a surfboard. i want a friend who will take me. i want to be in school. i want to be working. i want to know everything about everything i like. i want to know about computers. but not for a job. i want to be trilingual. i want a faster bike. i'm stuck. in a rut. i'm not learning. i'm not saving. i'm not enjoying as much as i once was.

Posted by kittenfat at 8:07 PM | Permalink | Comments

productivity=kind of

i worked all weekend in the animation studio. mostly doing tedious tasks like updating spreadsheets and making notes of things. did get a few hours free to do a tutorial on final cut pro. very fun.

today was first day at new job. it's ok. i won't love it. i won't hate it for a while. it's something. more to come on that. the only stressor now is my wardrobe. i ain't got no clothes. i just spent $75 at express on shitty clothes that i don't like, but they are business casual. this goes against my rule of not buying clothes unless i absolutely love them. these clothes suck. but they were $10 per item. i am keeping them as a last resort. i will try to assemble something acceptable from the things in my dresser first.

and i was almost late for my first day today. the shittiness of that connecting bus is too much for me, so i put my bike on the reliable bus and ride the rest of the way. the bus that came today had the bike rack torn off! this is the first time i've seen this! i made it in just before the start.

searching for cheap japanese class but no luck:
berlitz=expensive
community college=only beginner level
ucla=still $400 for a few months. that aint that cheap
everything else is too far away

suck.

Posted by kittenfat at 7:05 PM | Permalink | Comments

productivity=medium

i have been applicating for jobs like it was a full time job. the thing is-i know i'm not going to find a job i *love* in the classifieds, so these jobs are just shit to get the rent paid. admin ass, data entry, phone surverys. etc. spending so much time to find a suck job.

yesterday was a low. i had an interview at an art gallery. got lost. bike tire popped (yes, i rode there on my bike) gave up.

had a phone interview with CALPIRG. sounded like a great job. low pay ($23K/yr), but sounded interesting. i've never heard so many euphemisms. basically it is door to door asking for money and sometimes working 80 hours a week.

today. interview with ESL school. i woke up early. took the bus. early. then! proceeded to miss my connecting bus. i still don't know how this happened. i took my first bus earlier than scheduled. ended up waiting an hour for another bus to come. from the other direction nonetheless (effing internet bus route planning) showed up 45 minutes late to interview. they still hired me. they just checked for a pulse, slapped some textbooks on me, and told me to show up tuesday for my first class. umm. what. so this is what i will be doing. i guess. $15/hr, 9-1 every day.

i'm not thrilled about this job. but, it's more pay than the other shit. all the kids going to the school are in their 20s. and i have the rest of my day free to find some sort of unpaid internship. plus if the animation studio finds money, they are right down the street, so i could part-time it with them for low stress. even in worst case scenario, i never find another job, i will just have to live super spartan. my life will suck, but oh well. all the free time in the world!

got my bike tire fixed today and picked up extra tubes. contemplating going hard on my bod since i have so much time. may use savings for a wetsuit. ($300)

Posted by kittenfat at 5:22 PM | Permalink | Comments

things have been massively shitty, thus, the lack of posting. i couldnt even force myself to get on here and write a little bit. i am off to see about a job in an art gallery. ($9/hr)

Posted by kittenfat at 10:32 AM | Permalink | Comments

productivity=pretty good

im exhausted. crappy night of sleep.

i went to the temp agency today and took their battery of tests. i fared ok on the typing etc, i have never used excel before and got about half of the test right. i have used word a lot and got the same score. oh. spelling-perfect. grammar 90% this is my shame.

i work as a front desk person at a physical therapy office for 3 days starting the 15th. i make $10 an hour.

today i cleaned, did laundry, read some comics out of The Years best comics..i forget the name now. the japanese recruiter called me back. i have an interview out in pasadena on friday. that's far away. i 'm not sure how i will get there.

today i applied to be:
admin ass at nonprofit
esl instructor
art gallery front desk and art installer
field investigator
cashier at the museum store at the museum i like
production coordinator
production assistant
freakin awesome assistant (craigslist title)

Posted by kittenfat at 7:28 PM | Permalink | Comments

productivity=medium

i've had a pleasant weekend and i kind of forgot about posting. i saw these movies: Pan's Labyrinth, United 93, Why we Fight, The Thing, Descent. I watched Descent last night. It was deliciously scary.

today i got up late kind of accidentally. cleaned the dishes. phoned a dear friend, and went to target to acquire "career things". i have a date with the temp agency at 9:30 tomorrow morning. yow. not how i wanted things to happen, but i guess it was inevitable.

Today I applied to be an executive assistant, a manager, and a personal assistant.

Posted by kittenfat at 7:53 PM | Permalink | Comments