productivity=what
ok. the jobs are good. but the future of the one i like is shaky. i'm not sure how much longer they will need me. plus the future of me is shaky. what a what. i'm here. i'm queer...um ok. there is a job i desperately want with a certain japanese broadcasting company. i want it. i want it so bad. i want to take japanese class. bad. i want my effing textbooks to show up. i want a surfboard. i want a friend who will take me. i want to be in school. i want to be working. i want to know everything about everything i like. i want to know about computers. but not for a job. i want to be trilingual. i want a faster bike. i'm stuck. in a rut. i'm not learning. i'm not saving. i'm not enjoying as much as i once was.
ok. the jobs are good. but the future of the one i like is shaky. i'm not sure how much longer they will need me. plus the future of me is shaky. what a what. i'm here. i'm queer...um ok. there is a job i desperately want with a certain japanese broadcasting company. i want it. i want it so bad. i want to take japanese class. bad. i want my effing textbooks to show up. i want a surfboard. i want a friend who will take me. i want to be in school. i want to be working. i want to know everything about everything i like. i want to know about computers. but not for a job. i want to be trilingual. i want a faster bike. i'm stuck. in a rut. i'm not learning. i'm not saving. i'm not enjoying as much as i once was.
you're breaking my heart!! what about PB?? Is the application in?
Linea and I did a tarot reading for you and read your fairy cards...they seemed really appropriate for you...but now i can't remember what they said. Other than, FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS! he he he
Posted by
Kirsten |
1:00 AM
Yeah, they were along the lines of follow your dreams, but only the realistic ones.
Sounds like you need to 'be in the now' for a while and stop worrying about the 'future'. YOU HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD AND YOU ARE NOT TOO OLD FOR THIS!!!!!!!
Try doing one thing at a time - i.e. just work and not worry about Japanese lessons -if you don't have the time and/or the money to do it right now, what's the sense in wasting time stressing about it.
If you really want to do PB, then make that your focus. Work at that until the app is totally done and don't let other things get in your way until then. You know how good it will feel to have that completed so make it your priority.
Just focus on one or two things at a time chicky. Once you have those in order, then you can tackle the next one or two things on your list. Don't try doing it all at once.
Posted by
Linea |
6:01 AM